May 24, 2010

Hello friends,
       Good afternoon, I pray everyone is doing well today.  I just talked to the Dr. in Franklin and he, thankfully, canceled tomorrow's appt. as we have not noticed any difference in Micah since last week.  Five hours of driving for a 20 minute appt. is a lot.  They are going to start the processing for Micah's trip to St. Louis and I will let you know what is going on as soon as I hear back from them.  This month we are going to put Micah into a summer program through the public school system.  He will go Mon. - Fri. for 4 hrs. and will get all the various therapies he needs each day.  If this goes well then we are looking at putting him into to this program (a program for the medically fragile) during the regular school year.  They will pick him up and bring him home, he will get his therapies, there will be nurse on hand if necessary.  We met with the people (at least a dozen) last week and were very impressed with them and the program.  Before leaving Thomas prayed for all of them (not one of them protested), principal included.  One of them told us later that that was the first time they had ever had a parent to pray for them.  Micah will start the summer program on Wed. morning and probably the most difficult part of this will be getting him ready to go by 7 something in the morning and once again trusting him into the hands of someone else : (
     While in church on Sunday, I felt impressed to share something with you back from the St. Louis days.  I have lately been asked by a few people how I am able to handle this happening to Micah.  In their eyes, I seem to have just taken everything in stride.  Well, this is not so.  I have days where the emotions are nearly uncontrollable, the least little thing can set me off to crying.  For example, at the end of getting Abigail ready to leave I had a meltdown and mainly because I was realizing the feeling that I am already missing one child.  That's what it feels like to me most of the time, the Micah we knew is not here and we miss him terribly.  Most of the time, if I stay busy, I am fine.   Anyway, what I experienced during that time was an overwhelming sense of security.  Honestly, there were times that I felt like I could have driven through rush hour traffic in St. Louis blindfolded and I would have arrived at my destination unharmed.  I believe that God knew that I was stretched as far as I could go at that time and I needed that sense of security to just be able to function.  Even now there are times when I start to worry about something (finances, time, you name it) and it usually does not go beyond the starting point because God has proven Himself more than able to take care of us far beyond anything that we could ever do on our own.  

"Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life,what you will

eat or what you will drink;  nor about your body, what you will put 
on.   Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?

Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather 

into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them.  

Are you not of more value than they?"

Matthew 6:25-26

     For those of you that do not have the answer to that question, it is yes.  You are, no matter what you think, of great value to your Father.

Many blessings,

Tina