September 19 2:00 PM

Dear friends,
     Thank you once again for all the encouragement.  The emotions were running high and low yesterday and I couldn't bring myself to sit down and write to you.  We were moved out of the PICU yesterday and into a regular room.  The reason for the move was not because Micah is doing so much better, but rather because the docs can do nothing else for him.  Monday they will get the tooth from the esophagus and there are a couple of other things we will have to decide, but that is all they can do.  The doctors have told us "we don't know how to fix this, we don't have the knowledge".  We already knew this, no surprise, but it is good to be put into the place where you can do absolutely nothing else but trust God.  That is where we are.  This was not the reason for my emotions, I knew from the beginning that the docs could only do so much I'm just an impatient mom that wants to see her little guy smile again.  Having faith in God is not so difficult, keeping it during the hard times is.  Yesterday was a struggle because I want God to act faster.  So this morning while I was praying for Micah I reminded God of His promises to us and the things that have been spoken over Micah's life.  I then had to admit that I didn't see how, in his present state any of that any of those things could happen.  God's thoughts are not the same as mine, so if His will is best accomplished in Micah this way then I have to accept that.  I'm still praying the selfish prayers of a mother, and will continue to do so.  So for now, each day we try to put on the garments of praise for the spirit of heaviness that can so easily consume our hearts & minds causing us to miss the blessings that God has for us each day.
     
"We are a moment, You are forever
Lord of he ages God before time
We are a vapor You are eternal
Love everlasting reigning on high.


We are the broken  You are the healer
Jesus Redeemer mighty to save
You are the love song we'll sing forever
Bowing beforeYou Blessings Your name.


Holy, holy Lord God Almighty
Worthy is the Lamb who was slain
Highest praises honor and glory
Be unto Your name
Be unto Your name"                       -Robin Mark


Some friends brought us some non-cafeteria food today (thanks) we met them in the lobby and had a good visit.  The mother from Milan (mentioned in an earlier post) came down and we got to spend some time with her.  She was having her emotional day today so we all prayed for  her & encouraged her, it was good to be able to give some of what God has been giving to us.  Keep them (Lee, Deb & their son Zachary) in your prayers.  
After our friends left we went to the hospital chapel and Thomas played the piano a while and we sang, I was just thinking, "God, it sure would be nice to have some friends here to worship with tomorrow."  We left the chapel, went down one flight of stairs and Thomas phone rang.  Someone from our small group at church called to see if we would want to have our small group meeting at the hospital!  What a blessing!  God is faithful and He cares about us even when it seems He's forgotten us.  God is growing us each day closer to Him and that is a good place to be.  I love you all dearly and pray God's blessings on you.
Tina